rasa macam nak sepak semua orang. T___T * tak pasal pasal.

haihh,, sumpah aku macam depressed sangat ouh sekarang ni, macam ni, tadi, around 7.30pm sumthing,, aku dapat satu text message. aku ingat kan maxis suh reload or ntah jadah ape je,, rupe rupenye, bile aku bace,, message tuh tulis camni.

'congratulation! you are shortlisted for utp educamp in utp for private student. for details, please log on to www.utp.edu.my. thank you.'

whaaaatt???

okay, tu boleh blah lagi, then aku terus a bukak web dye kasi tu, and aku tengok la,, memang aku dapat and dye suh komfemkan aku terima atau tolak by 21hb ni...

haaa??? 

gila ape? dah la kasi tau aku lambat.

tapi tu still boleh blah lagi la,,,then aku ngan gelabah ayam nye gi on9 fb sebab nak tanye kat membe aku cuz dye ade dapat gak and dye da tau lagi awal gila gila dari aku. aku pun tanye la,

'ju, kau dapat utp tu kau nak gi ke?'

'aku pegi, yana pun. tu interview la.'

whhaaaatt???

what the hell were they thinking???

me? going to an interview for engineering course in UTP???

shut up!!!

weyy, this is soooo insane. what am i going to say in that interview? what the shit engineering is? i dont even know any of it. YA ALLAH,,  i beg for your mercy...

haihh nak nak pulak bile ayah aku suh gak pegi. DAMN. rase cam nak nangis je. 

i know, it's like satu peluang sebenarnye bile dapat offer gi interview tu, tapi i remind you all, that this is not a scholarship offer! tak tau lah nak cakap cane, its like tak berbaloi pun aku rase ade. utp kan sebuah universiti swasta. aku tahu, aku takkan dapat lepas punye interview tu,, sebab,, sebab, stop,, i really tak boleh fikir pasal interview tuh, sebab i am so scared with that word. it's like allergy. okay okay than i realised, if i'm not pass the interview, i still have upu or marix, and plus, aku dapat pengalaman baru, iaitu di interview secara serius. i mean, ni really really serious.

tapi aku takut wooo!!!!!!

ya ALLAH, tolong la bagi petunjuk kat hambaMu yang selalu sangat melupakanMu ini,, yang selalu hanya meminta pertolonganMu disaat susahnya. ampunkan aku. bantulah aku...Aaaminn.

p/s : you! yeah you! if you read this, i just want you to know,, that i really really really hope for your opinion,,, please...... sudah lah, aku tau kau takkan bagi punye. pergi lah layan awek kau. poor me kan? T__T but it's okay. i'm trying to face this kind of situation without you. i repeat, without you. but but,, if you have a piece of care for me,,, please...