gaul dengan sebati perasaan perasaan itu.

Assalamuailaikum.

dah lama tak melukis perasaan dekat sini. sejak dapat kerja yang membosankan tu, dunia aku kelam suram. ish macam Pantat je suara kartun ni. *pergi tutup tv kejap*

okay, lets start it all over again. lately kehidupan aku berkecamuk. berkecamuk dengan pelbagai perasaan. perasaan yang tak menentu. at first i was happy, then the second i was sad, and the third i was like a werewolf searching for a dinner meal.

perasaan ini hebat betul. tak pernah lagi aku ada feeling sebegini lama dengan public figure. feeling apa? aku pun tak berapa pasti. macam aku cakap tadi. berkecamuk. aku sedar He is Something and I am Nothing. yeah. kinda pathetic statement kan? but yeah, walau apa pun. dear N that i should Fuck cuz i love you so bad, i will support you to achieve your one and only dream. -to become a Rapper. Aminnn. one day, if Allah wills. :')

orait. enough for the pathetic moment. sekarang aku nak Gaduh pulak. Pukiss betul siapa yang buat tahi dengan aku ni. macam Lansiss je perangai. you only know my name when you are in trouble isnt it? Damn lah sangat kan. in Trouble -Mira, having Problems -Mira, life Chaos -Mira, asking questions or views -Mira. Oh, then when i need you,

"hello, yes. aha, emm, aha, emm, okay bye" 

F*ck you mannn. aku terharu dan hargai tindakan kau yang memilih aku sebagai, you know, someone to refer to, someone where you can spill every Assholes stories, someone which you feel comfy to let your tears out, tapi... HELLO??! WHERE ARE YOU WHEN I NEED YOU? memang lah kita tak terikat dengan apa apa agreement yang kau kena dengar bebelan aku but, COME ON MANNN. lets do Give and Take.

so i think that's another pathetic story right? Damn. baiklah. lately jugak, i was "into" something, its kinda related to N, its about RAP thingy. haha. macam Loserss je aku nak cakap pasal ni. knowledge aku about HipHop, Rap is to little as 0.0000001. but its good to listen to Malaysian Hiphop songs. apa yang aku dapat dari seorang "rakan", banyak Malaysian Hiphop singers/ Rappers yang bergerak underground. mereka patut diketengah kan actually. like N said, Hiphop not Die yet. hopefully Hiphop is mortal. insyaAllah. selagi ia menyampaikan something yang baik and influence to benda yang baik baik. :)

see told ya. im a miserable person with miserable feelings. Najwa will never read this. this is too long and lari dari apa yang aku selalu lukiskan. sorry, the idea didnt come out cuz its somehow got stuck in my medulla oblongata. puihhh.

till i write again. sooner. i dont know, my office block banyak website. puihh puihh puihh. bukan taknak update dekat rumah, just bila dah sampai rumah, jadi penat and like i said,the idea merajuk taknak keluar cuz i'm too late. Damn.

Selamat Malam.
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